Monday 22 April 2019

True Love will find you one day!

I have known about love since ages, at least that's what I thought! I have been into relationships early in my life, when I probably did not even understand the meaning of it. I initially thought these relationships were perfect, promising forever happiness, but later as I grew up, it showed the real, ugly face to me. I thought Love was unkind to me, it always disheartens me with heart breaks. What I did not realize was Love was never meant to be blamed. It was my own stupidity and restlessness that made me fall for the wrong persons. What I did not realize was when the pain and irritation exceeds the happiness, it is not Love at all. It might look like love but it is not! Because True love is and has always been magical. Just that I learnt it the hard way since it has eluded and misguided me so long.

So what is True love and how will you find it? It is hard to define True love and harder to find it. You probably have to wait for it to visit you. However in my case, I was not even waiting. I lost all hope in love and I decided that I will not waste this precious emotion for anyone unworthy anymore. Because my love is indeed precious and pure and wild and true. I cant love less, I cant love halfheartedly. The one I love will not only get my heart and body but also my soul! and I cant trust that with anyone anymore. 

But there he was, putting all my resolutions in vain, offering his love for me! The person who I have known since school and have been friends all my life, suddenly appeared before me as my prospective lover. I was shaken and surprised because for me I could never imagine him more than a friend. Our friendship grew stronger with every year but I never thought he would be the love of my life. But deep inside, there must have been some special attraction towards him, otherwise why would I break all my resolutions and open up my heart again? Why would I start to hope and dream and love again? I must have been waiting for him and his love forever! I cant say that for sure but all I can say is he is the one! It could n''t have been anyone else.

It was a daring task for him to express his feelings for me, it was even more daring for me to believe him, having been lied to and misled in the past. But he was patient and persistent. I never had any doubt about him as a friend and as a person, I knew he was nice and friendly, but I was scared if our compatibility would match and I was apprehensive if his love for me would be FOREVER! I wanted to take time to ensure that it is not just an infatuation but rather a genuine desire to be with each other. And now that a year of our courtship has already passed, I have no doubt that I am deeply, madly and truly in love with him. He is my definition of happiness, of peace and of love. His smiles make me smile. The way he pampers me, takes care of me and makes love with me makes me brim with joy. This is my knowledge and understanding of love, of happiness, of companionship. It was not easy to love a broken soul like mine, accept me with all my baggage and insecurities, but he had the strength and courage to take that step. Not only did he shower me with all his love, he introduced me to his family and made me their own. 

With each passing day, my love for him is only growing. I not only love him, but I respect him too. His maturity, his sincerity and his affection amazes me. He takes efforts to ensure I am happy, he understands me more than myself. He would sometimes surprise me with flowers on Valentines day and sometimes write a surprise blog for me or a sudden love letter will reach me. He would meet me whenever possible and compliment me. He would take me out for movies or lunch or on weekend trips. He would try to match my madness to fulfil my wishes. Sometimes he would talk to me for long, share his stories, sometimes he would share his pain. Sometimes he would just hold me close and hug me tight. In those moments, I secretly thank God for all the pain and heart breaks I had in the past. For if I did not face those sad times, I would have never known what True Love is!

I dont know what I have done to deserve this but sometimes I want to pinch myself to believe if all this is true. I feel scared to even imagine a life without him. He is the perfect man every woman would dream of and I am lucky to find him. He has brought back peace, love, positivity, strength and calmness in my life. He has made me realize that I am not unlucky rather I am the luckiest woman. I still believe in destiny and the Almighty and this faith makes me believe everything will remain fine. The two of us will walk along this journey of life, hand in hand and make all our dreams come true. He has given a new meaning to my life and a reason for my existence. My heart wants to scream and thank him for everything and also plead with him to never let this love diminish! He is the best example to teach that you should NEVER LOSE FAITH IN LOVE!